Re-evaluating my Dreams

You might assume that being a Christian gives you first dibs on God’s blessings. New house, new car, financial security etc. But the more I think about Christ and His life here on earth, the more I begin to realize that being a CHRIST-tian should be more than any material blessing. I often hear sermons about naming it and claiming it, sow this money seed and watch it grow into thousands, and tithing expecting some type of money return. I’m not denying God’s ability to provide even our deepest desires, I’m saying…it’s not something Jesus had or wanted while He was here on earth.

Jesus replied, “Foxes have dens and birds have nests, but the Son of Man has no place to lay his head.” Matthew 8:20

Jesus’ heart did not desire anything for himself but for the world. He was so focused on the salvation of man that He never worried about the next meal or the next time He was going to rest His head on a comfortable bed. Thinking about it, Jesus found His disciples sleeping outside at some points

Then he returned to his disciples and found them sleeping. “Couldn’t you men keep watch with me for one hour?” he asked Peter. (Matthew 26:40)

Idk, sounded like they were used to snoozing outside lol.

It wasn’t Jesus’ desire to ask God for “things”. His prayers were filled with the concern for His people. For the world. I keep this in mind often. If i want to be Christlike, I have to re-evaluate my prayers. What are my hopes and dreams? How often to i concern myself with the salvation of my family, friends, ppl in the streets?

God’s will for Jesus was the death on The Cross. Jesus’ will for His disciples was to preach the gospel which resulted in persecution. What is God’s will for me? To be happy? To be Too blessed to be stressed? Rich and relaxed? Those things sound great but while I’m here on earth, should that be my ultimate desire?

This is episode idk of the Bus Chronicles because I’m too lazy to check which episode I’m in. I think number 3

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I can tell

I can tell when someone is pretending to be kind to me.

I can tell when someone is bragging about their success but disguises it with humility.

I can tell when someone is making an effort to prove that they’re better than me.

I can tell

So i let them speak

I play along

I act naive

Because the more they do it, the sillier they look and that’s amusing to me.

Dear Livi

Dear Livi

If it seems as life isn’t on your side

And all you can do is sob

Put the enemy beneath your feet

Cuz you’re doing a great job

It seems like life isn’t in your favor

Your name may be subject to their chatter.

All great people are subject to critics

Cuz Livi, you matter!

Life SEEMS to be mean

Life SEEMS to be an enemy

But let’s look through another perspective

Because life was a friend to me

It gave me strength and purpose and will.

It was mean at times but it wasn’t until –

I surpassed all the trials that came to me.

Cuz Life opens your eyes to what you’re supposed to see.

Comfort zone = Danger zone

I’m at ease when i find myself struggling in the daily. I am working endlessly on enhancing my Medical Billing knowledge and it has required me to constantly step out my comfort zone. In order for me to be the best, i need to KNOW the competition. I need to know how they’re excelling, where do they slack, their office cycle, the chain of command, what makes the staff happy, what makes them upset etc. I do endless research on figuring out how to get the most money when coding procedures because it’s not just about coding the right way. It’s also knowing the many insurance guidelines to get the most income. There are deadlines to comply to, appeals to write, insurance companies to fight with… its a lot. My goal is to be the BEST AT IT and once i notice I’m comfortable, i know something is wrong. The medical billing field is fierce but every billing company i stepped foot into were very mechanical. Not one had an open mind to figure out ways to be proactive. I plan to be a pioneer in this field and i can’t for not one minute….rest.

What are your goals? Who do you want to be. What do you want to do? Find what that is and go full force. In this world you have to go all or nothing! Once you are comfortable, you’re in danger! There is no growth there.

This is episode 3 of The Bus Chronicles. Enjoy your day!

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IT. You know, the clown?

Im not a big scary movie fan. I refuse to watch anything demonic for obvious reasons so when I saw that IT was available to watch, I was like, oh good, a normal, scary, not demonic movie.

What was that for? I couldn’t sleep allll night cuz the dang movie was creepy. The clown shows up in public places where you think it’s safe and i wasn’t having that. The moral of the story was poppin tho. If you stick together and face your fears, you can beat the clown. If you haven’t watched the movie, this may be a spoil alert. This ugly clown had power against the children only if they were scared of him. Every time they faced their fears, he had absolutely no power.

I laugh at myself cuz i always have to find something good in everything i watch. I don’t recommend watching the movie because you might lose sleep like i did but if you must must watch it, take this message with you.

1. Face your fears

2. You can’t do it alone. A good friend will help and support you.

3. Don’t go after red balloons

4. DO NOT GIVE IN

This is episode 2 of my Bus Chronicles. Have an awesome day!

Currently, we are pending news about a bomb that went off in Times Square which is effecting Jersey City’s NJ transit commute (the bus I’m in). Praying nothing serious comes out of all of this.

Secrets

When you lock up all your deepest secrets,

You will never accept love at its deepest.

When they show you love, how could you believe it?

Because if they knew your secret

They really wouldn’t love you or try to heal it.

The shame will surface and you’ll feel it.

So you keep your secrets a secret.

 

Don’t be scared to let it go

It’s your secret but God already knows.

Open up, let your secrets show.

Healing takes over and mercy flows.

Don’t be nervous just let it blow!

Your secrets to many, are like Gold!

And when someone loves, you feel it whole.

The shame is gone and your face glows.

Sin like scarlet, now you’re snow

when you let your secrets go.

Nothing More Than Feelings

We respond so hastily to our feelings. We may even pay more attention to our own feelings than the Written Word of God. There have been plenty of times when I felt God’s love for me was nonexistent, but I learned that those feelings were far from the truth. I listened to those lies over and over until scripture went through one ear and came out the other. Listening to our own feelings produces an invisible barrier around the heart that blocks the truth from entering. Ever felt like the pastor was preaching an encouraging, grace filled sermon that you felt didn’t apply to you? Those are feelings taking over preventing The Truth to come to life.

 
God has taught me through various trials that I had to pursue Him even in the hardest, busiest times of my life. When things are going smoothly, reading scripture is easy. Seeking God is no struggle. It’s when life takes over, when 24hrs isn’t enough to get things done, when everyday we’re in survival mode that we may stop making God priority without even knowing it. Making sure rent is paid is super important to all of us. Making sure there is food in the fridge for our children is vital. The enemy is keen to what matters to us the most and may choose to attack those areas to distract us. Yes, we pray and ask God for help but that 1 hour a day we used to seek His face sometimes turns to 10 minutes. Its human to respond to our feelings, to respond to an empty refrigerator, to a negative bank account, to loneliness, but it is spiritual to respond with urgency to the Holy Ghost.

 
Once we begin to push and bring ourselves out of the funk, we begin to see miracles. The struggle may not be over, but the anxiety disappears. We start to see the little love gestures God puts in front of us to show that He is in control… that He cares. There are many verses with stories of people who lost hope and God came through. Read them, and declare the restoration of your hope. Fight through the feelings, don’t give in! God has the last word.

 

Read about Sarah! Pregnant at old age???

Read about the woman with the issue of blood whos hope was restored

Moses also “felt” a certain way about himself

Let Your Will Be Done

 

If you haven’t realized God’s character yet, you wouldn’t receive this blog the way it is intended to be received.

 

Only the courageous could pray “Let your will be done”. God’s will for us is not to be comfortable, it is not easy and its process produces tears like never before. “Let Your will be done” you say? Let’s examine those words…

 

Let:

 

Are you prepared to “let” and not fight it? Imagine caring for a toddler who loves to play in mud. Now, you spend a lot of your energy keeping him from going near mud. You sit him down but he gets up again, you put one of those child leashes on him and he screams, you take him elsewhere but you see him yearning for that mud. Then, a stranger passes by and says, “Just let him play in the mud”. Finally, you let him go and for some odd reason, there is peace. You sit down, relax, read a book peacefully knowing he is in the mud enjoying himself. Yes, in the back of your mind you know you must clean him up but that struggle doesn’t amount to the struggle of keeping him away from the mud. Letting God do His will in your life means that you are aware of the mess that will follow and can maintain your peace in the process. You obey His word and refrain from using alternatives to make the process easier. A great prize comes with a great fight and God’s will is never insignificant.

 

Your Will:

 

God is clear when He speaks about His will for all the believers.

 

Mark 16:15 And he said to them, “Go into all the world and proclaim the gospel to the whole creation.

 

If our deepest desires do not connect with Mark 16:15, I don’t think our plans would be aligned with God’s will for us. Yes, we have desires like getting married, having children, buying a home etc. but if those desires do not connect with God’s ultimate plan, we might realize that after obtaining what we want, we develop a desire for something else. The wants of the world never end. There is always something new we must get our hands on. When we trust God with our lives, our fleshy desires diminish. We find ourselves being please with what we have and prepared to share our abundance with those who do not. Once we submit to God’s will, God will then give us what we most desired. Scripture says,

 

Matthew 6:33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well

Be Done:

 

I know a woman who was ministered to about what God had planned for her life. She was supposed to leave her job and open her own business along with taking care of some ministerial duties. She was so down and distraught about how her finances at home and probably within a month, she went back on the job market to start working again. She heard the call, she obeyed but couldn’t go through with it. She lost faith in God because of what was going on around her. If we are aware of God’s character, we know that God uses the most impossible situation to manifest Himself. If at any time, we used our own strength to bring ourselves out of a mess, God could not get all the credit. He will step back from our problem and let you work it out yourself. I mean, He is a gentleman.

 

“Let Your will be done” isn’t a simple prayer. It requires one to deny himself completely for the prayer to come to life. This prayer isn’t for the faint at heart.