We have this subtle and very sinful tendency

to look at what happens to someone else

and we think

we are not as bad of a sinner as they are

when the reality is,

we are all sinners at the core.

I urge you;

do not let the circumstances of others

make you think of yourself as righteous

for that self-righteousness in itself

is dreadfully sinful.


Stephen: The first Christian who was martyred in the book of acts.

There were many false accusations that stirred up against him. Instead of defending himself, he preached the gospel and told the Jews that they rejected their savior.

Then, he was stoned to death. 

I always find myself defending my spiritually. Stephen shows me that it isn’t necessary. 

He could have used that moment to claim his innocence. He found something much more important than that. 

So important, it was worth dying for. 

Experience: I thought I knew

These past few months have kept my eyebrows in the raised position for many reasons. I wish I could get into detail but unfortunately I have yet to find the words to explain exactly how I’ve been feeling. Lately, I’ve been asking myself the same question. “You think you know huh? You think you know?”
My answer?

“Ha! Not anymore.”

I have been through plenty of…things in this Christian walk to be able to say confidently that I have some meaningful testimonies. I’ve seen God work in my life firsthand and I share my experiences with others hoping they would grasp an idea of how God functions.

How God functions?!

YHVH is NOT a toy that when you flip the “on” switch, He lights up and sings a tune. He’s not a computer that when you press the “backspace” key, you can delete a letter or a sentence. God is not a television that when you click guide, you can view upcoming episodes. Let me try to explain.

I spoke of God as if I spoke of a “thing” that responds based on my action. If I prayed an hour, my sadness would cease. Yes, He has delivered me that same way but I shouldn’t assume that to be the ONLY way.

Once, I had to make some quick decisions and I fasted for a week. God responded by telling me what my next steps should be. I shouldn’t assume that fasting is the ONLY way to find help in regards to my decisions for my future.

If you give generously, God would bless your finances right? How can I tell someone else to do the same if they have nothing to give?  I portrayed God as some kind of genie.  You rub a lamp and He responds by granting 3 wishes. That he is not.

Why do I sound unsettling? I am. When I pressed the “on” button in my life, sometimes God’s volume went up. I would press the guide button and God would go to channel 5. I would lower the volume and God would play a movie.

I have to admit, there were times I did nothing for the Kingdom, and God responded with blessings as if I’ve done tons of Christian things. God, I understand.

You are not a God of MY personal experience. You don’t maneuver in someone else’s life based on how you moved in mine. I shouldn’t guide someone in their struggle based on how I was guided through my own. Everyone is different and everyone absorbs the matters of God in unlike ways. My job isn’t to determine the best solutions to one’s storm. My job is to express God’s goodness in mine. Not based on what I did but based on what HE did.

God’s ways are not ours. The more we think we know, the less we actually know. Therefore, at times, my response will be, “I don’t know.”

And that’s okay

How to read a blog

I sense that there are people who read my blog prepared to discredit anything I say. They look out for my biblical references and immediately misinterpret my thoughts and opinions. I love when people pull the “practice what you preach” card.

First and foremost, I’d like to say in clear plain text:

My blog meets no standards.

In other words

When I write, I don’t follow any rules.

In other words

My blog is about how I express myself when it comes to being a Christian and that includes flaws.

We need to learn how to read blogs with an open mind and understand that everyone has their own opinion about … Life!

Don’t shove your ideas down someone else’s throat and write a condescending comment as if you know it all.

When it comes to my blog, I write exactly how I feel. I have no interest in making up some silly story that will make me look any type of way. My normal self is interesting enough.

If I want to write that I was once upset at God or that I wanted to punch people in the face, I’m gunna write it. Since when did being a Christian signify being perfect. Since when did God say “pretend that you got it all together” um no.

I admire people who are honest about their true feelings and don’t try to cover it up to look like a pretty pretty pretty holy princess.

Next time you look at anyone’s webpage, blog, social media, etc. Appreciate their perspective. If you don’t agree with their idea, don’t look down on them.

Don’t be condescending.

How do you know it’s from God?

It’s super important to read the bible. We all need answers to our many life questions without going over what scripture says about it. I’m going to go over a few scenarios to demonstrate what I’m trying to prove here.

Is this apartment for me God? It has parking and heat/hot water is included! It’s in a furnished basement which will make it easy to bring in groceries. Its not a registered apartment so there is no lease so that’s a plus.

The Lord tells us to make sure our dealings are legal and honest. Is the apartment from God? I don’t know? All I know is that an unregistered apartment is breaking some type of law. God will always bless our silly choices somehow but maybe, if we waited, there would be something better.

God, this job looks pretty amazing. 65k a year, 401k, medical benefits and incentives. Lord, this has to be for me. All I have to do is process some paperwork, go to the bank and answer phone calls and tell the callers that my boss isn’t here. I’m going to take it.

Is it from God? So you tell the callers the boss isn’t there? Now, what if he is always there and now you find yourself lying everyday.  Like I said, God May bless us, but would it be the best blessing? Imagine if we rejected such an appealing job for our spiritual sake. I’m sure God will give us a better job that pays more.

I love this man. He is charming and cute. He has a car, a great job and has it all together. He says he loves me and is always there when I need him. He’s a man of God and helps me spiritually when I’m down. We hang out all the time but we have to keep it on the low. He’s in the process of getting a divorce and I don’t want us  to effect the judges decision in regards to his kids. Is he from God? Is this my soul mate?

Um, no

Marriage is an eternal bond forever and always. You can fight for a married man and plan a future with him but you’ll find yourself building your foundation on sand. The house may stand during those beautiful, sunny days oh but when that storm comes, you guys WILL drown. To amend to the whole eternal bond thing, the majority of divorced men wish their relationship worked out with their first wife and regret the divorce. Not all not all. Don’t go crazy. Just look out for a faithfully praying ex wife. Then you got a problem.

Reading the bible helps us understand God’s character to determine what is for us and what is not. If God said no to one thing in the bible, that no still applies to us today. God is the same yesterday, today and forever. He’s not a man that lies so when he says something, He means it. Quit playing ignorant and reach out for what’s best for you, even if it means you have to drop something.

Hope this helped


Help me pray that this month my family and I finally move out this basement. This unregistered basement. 😉  hehe


Love like I’m not scared

Today, this sentence hit me. I heard it in a song many many times but today it stuck out the most. “Love like I’m not scared…”

I questioned, how can you be scared to love? Whoa, a bunch of personal scenarios came to mind.

Recently, I promised myself to never have a close friend again. I pledged to make Jesus my only BFF forever and always amen. Although that sounds ideal, it’s not correct to maintain a life in this way. We need friends to sharpen us spiritually. It is good to have a close friend that will correct us when we are wrong in a loving manner.

Because of my bitterness towards the friends I’ve had in the past, I’ve pushed away some amazing people. I’m going to try to live by this phrase and give new friends a chance. Also, I’m going to learn from the old ones. I’m going to love unconditionally. No matter the mistake, or hurt, or issue a good friend may cause to me or others, I’m still going to love and remain a friend.  I’m not going to pretend to keep a civil friendship because we are brothers and sisters in Christ, that’s just a load of fecal matter. Jesus is the first to peep that hypocrisy and I’m not planning on living that way with anyone.

To my enemies, even if I’ve apologized for all my wrong doings towards you and you choose to hate me anyway, I’m still going to love you and think about all the good things we went through together. I’m not going to lie, I may think of some bad stuff. Thank God I have a good friend that loves me with flaws and all – that taught me something useful. “Replace a bad memory with a good one”. So I am.

God tells us to love anyway. Love without being scared of getting hurt. Love knowing that we can or will get hurt and its okay with us. Jesus loved us KNOWING we were going to hurt Him in return. He died on the cross KNOWING we were going to pay no mind to His death. If we are supposed to be like Christ, we should learn to love the same way.

I’m not letting my past experience ruin potential friendships. I’m going to love even if there is a possibility that the friend will abandon me. I’m going to love even if there is a possibility that this person  is going to hurt me. I’m going to love like I’m not scared.

Human Perfection Does Not Exist

You know the 10 commandments right? Let’s recap.

  1. You shall have no other gods before Me.
  2. You shall not make idols.
  3. You shall not take the name of the LORD your God in vain.
  4. Remember the Sabbath day, to keep it holy.
  5. Honor your father and your mother.
  6. You shall not murder.
  7. You shall not commit adultery.
  8. You shall not steal.
  9. You shall not bear false witness against your neighbor.
  10. You shall not covet

These law given to Moses by God are perfect. They are our guidelines to live a life pleasing to God. Now, ask yourself a question. Are you keeping all of them on a daily basis?

  • Is God the absolute first person in your life? Hehe think twice. Did you skip church one day to be with that boy?
  • Are you worshipping any idols? What’s that in your hand? Oh its a phone? Why won’t you leave that at home for a week or so? Oh you can’t?
  • Did you say OMG today? Did you say, TGIF because Friday you’re going clubbing?
  • What do you do Sundays after church? I’m sure the answer isn’t “I went to another church until 12AM” or “ I prayed all day until I went beddy bye bye”
  • Did you ever talk back to your parents? Yes you did, sit down.
  • Did you ever kill a person? Of course you didn’t good for you. Did you ever kill a person’s dreams or character?
  • Oh my favorite. Did you ever cheat on your spouse? Aww how faithful. How about that chick you were looking at on IG twerking? How about that dude posing in skin tight undies. MCM?
  • Oh good, you’ve never robbed a bank? Praise the Lord Praise the Lord. Go back to welfare and give back all the money you used for food stamps. Does someone need to amend their taxes? That pen you were chewing on, where did you get it? Is that your boyfriend you flirting with on the phone or does he belong to someone else? (this can apply to may commandments but I just want to put it here
  • “KG, what this ‘bearing false witness’?”  Sit down, based on your Instagram, you did it 1hr ago. #gossip
  • “KG, what is this covet?” If you read my very first blog you would know the answer to this but ill tell you. Stop being jealous of that girl that looks cuter than you. The effort you’re making to be like her #copying #extremediet etc. is coveting.

Now that we all agree that no one here is perfect, let’s move on.

Why does God tell us to follow these rules in order to go to Heaven if we obviously can’t keep them? Well, don’t you think God already knows we can’t? This explains the Cross. God sent His son to die so that we can live and go to heaven if we believe in Him. The only reason why God communicates with us even when we don’t follow these laws is because of Jesus. I’m not giving the okay to break the laws no no no. I’m saying that if ever we do, we HAVE to ask for forgiveness to be forgiven forever and for good. I would love to say more about this but the shorter the blog the better. You guys have short attention spans.


Salvation is a gift and its not based on what we do or our spiritual performance. We will fail every day. That’s just a fact. We want to live in LOVE with God and we want to obey Him because we LOVE HIM! And when we fail, we want to get back up and receive this gift of forgiveness and salvation. We need to trust that the Cross is enough to pay for our sins. So, The end



Sin: How to overcome




Psalm 103:12

12 As far as the east is from the west, so far hath he removed our transgressions from us.

Face it, we know when we are sinning. The moment we recognize sin, we have to nip it in the bud.


It grows. It gets bigger. It takes us places we never wanted to go.

Some of us gain our victory from sin with God’s mercy but some of us do not.

If you’re victorious, then I know you understand this verse and it’s power. Amen praise GOD.

If you are finding yourself on the losing side of sin, understand this: sin does not magically disappear in an instant. Here are some components of true repentance.

1. Recognize your sin and recognize how much it hurts God
2. Don’t shift the blame. “Its my fault, I messed up.”
3. Don’t attempt to cover it up.
4. Throw yourself at the mercy of GOD.
5. Be willing to turn from your sin. Do whatever it takes to stop.

When you have done all of this and feel a huge load of guilt, go back to the principle verse. Remember, after repentance, GOD remembers sin no more. 

If you still can’t seem to get it together, replace it with something else. Keep yourself busy. Find your purpose. Take your first step and GOD will take 100 steps towards you. Every effort counts.

Do I practice what I preach?

So, someone asked me:

“KC, do you listen to what you write? Like that instagram post, how not to go back to your past. Not to ‘run through it’ so you say”

I know he asked because I am super guilty of it. I can admit, it creeps up on me at times. Here was my answer:

“The reason why I write is because the topic speaks to me first. I can’t preach about something that I don’t know of first hand. I can’t tell you the solution to a problem if I didn’t got through it personally.”

What’s the use of my blog if I can’t prove God’s almighty power to have worked in my personal life. I’m not trying to act as if I got it all together, please I’m far from it. I’m just trying to warn others of the hazards that I’ve fumbled over in this obstical course called life. Is it right to watch someone fall into a trap that I fell into? Hmm, we all know that the right thing to do is to shoutout warnings, put up hazard signs and reveal those sneaky pitfalls. If I don’t warn you, your blood will be over my head.

I didn’t go through the fire and survive to keep it all to myself. I didn’t witness glory to hold it in my heart for life. I sure didn’t gain a victory to celebrate at home by myself nuh uhhhh.  Imma go all out. Imma disclose. Imma warn. Imma reveal traps. Imma be me. Authentic. And if you keep misinterpreting the word, grab a dictionary my friend.  It doesn’t mean perfect, it means real.

Do I practice what I preach?

The answer to my own question is;
-I try

But I tell you some realness; if I fail, I do my best to fix it.

If I preached it, it’s because I failed first.
If I preached it and then failed, it’s because I’m working on it.

Oh but I tell you, my mistakes will not stop me from preaching God’s truth. If the significance of a sermon was based on the performance of the preacher, NO Person would ever capture the almighty power of scripture.

IG @authkg


The Veil: Why do we keep hanging it up again?

Matthew 27:50-51

50 And when Jesus had cried out again in a loud voice, he gave up his spirit. 51 At that moment the curtain of the temple was torn in two from top to bottom.

The Veil was a heavy curtain that separated sinners from the Holy of Holies (place for Gods presence). When Jesus yelled in a loud voice on the cross and gave up his spirit, the veil or curtain tore in half from top to bottom. Jesus’ death on the cross gave us direct communication with God and He demonstrated this by eliminating the curtain that kept us from the Holy one and His altar.

With that being said

Imagine a pastor demanding that a sign be put on the church altar saying:

“If you are female, and you are not wearing a skirt, please DO NOT step on the altar. Thank you.”

This is a true story.




Imagine being told to shave your beard before playing the keyboard on the altar.

This is a true story.



Imagine being told to practice off the altar because you are wearing basketball shorts.

This is a true story



Imagine having confessed your sin to your pastor and being told that you can no longer participate in church activities because of…..sin?

This is a true story



Think, if Jesus tore that veil, why are we stitching it up and hanging it again? It’s crazy that a lot of believers feel strongly about these legalistic conditions. I mean, I read the bible and take it for exactly what it says. Jesus tore this veil when He died for a reason. I recall the bible also saying that…you know…”it is finished?”

Honestly, there shouldn’t be any law or rules to participate on the altar. I can understand if a pastor was trying to emphasize on looking decent, conservative and presentable for The Lord, but who said wearing a skirt is the only way? If anything, pants can be less revealing.

Who said shaving your beard made you look more presentable? What if that’s the only hair you have? S/O to hubby.

Who said being a sinner should keep you off the altar? I mean, if you’re sinless, cast that first stone. Right? If I sin and repent, doesn’t the bible say that God remembers my sin no more? So why remember my sin and bring it up when it comes to my participation on the altar?

Why is it emphasized to tell the church authorities about someone else’s sin? Um…the bible doesn’t call us to be tattle tells. I mean, is it our job to reveal someone else’s sin in the first place? If that’s the case, are we not taking that job away from the Holy Spirit? Does it help the sinner in any way? Does it help the sinner reach higher levels spiritually if we point fingers, sit them down and demand that they endure shame and rejection for a mistake?

Who are we to do any of that?

“Oh God remembers your sin no more my child but I DO! Now take it like a man and accept 6 months of discipline!”

I’m not trying to be controversial; I’m just trying to make a point about the veil that Jesus tore because if we are going to emphasize on something so stupid like skirts, beards and sin, we in turn emphasize on a meaningless cross.

Seriously, don’t preach about forgiveness and some east to west and deepest part of the ocean stuff if you don’t apply it to people when it’s necessary.

What do you think?