Stink, Stank, Stunk

“I don’t think you should overwhelm yourself though. I think you should pray, send positive vibes and well wishes. Do and deal with what you have control over, you’ll be fine. But don’t be “Stink, Stank, Stunk” ha ha.”

I told my cousin that I didn’t know the word Stank was the past tense of stink. I thought the word stank was slang and the past tense of stink was stunk. I’m still trying to figure it out…

…as I’m trying to figure out so many other things pertaining to my life. I’m learning that if i want to function on a daily basis as I should, I cant have too many things to think about. I cant have too many situations to analyze. I cant have too many decisions to make. I think my brain has the capacity of solving 1 life problem per day.  Any more than that, my brain begins to deflate like my 2 month old when she burps. Its not a loud bubbly burp. Its like releasing the air from a tire. Tsssssss.

When my mind is troubled, I hear someone say: “did you pray about it?’. Like, absolutely! But we forget that God gave us free will and the ability to make our own decisions especially in cases where both choices are not bad at all. Should I eat this apple, or this orange? Both are fruits, both are healthy, but I could only choose 1 within the next 5 minutes.

I have learned in moments like these to simply tell God I don’t know what to do and I have to make a move quickly. I tell Him to guide my steps and remove anything that could damage me. As I continue life with this same mindset, I realized that God still comes through.

You could say I’m wrong. That I shouldn’t make decisions if I don’t have time to pray. Fine, but the hospital is telling me to pull the plug on a family member or else that person would continue to suffer. How about responding to my child’s rebelliousness the moment he acts out or give myself time to breathe and think to handle the situation carefully.

Guys, you don’t know all of God’s capabilities. He’s way to wonderous to understand. Let God deal with everyone His own way. And let us step back.

 

 

Comfort zone = Danger zone

I’m at ease when i find myself struggling in the daily. I am working endlessly on enhancing my Medical Billing knowledge and it has required me to constantly step out my comfort zone. In order for me to be the best, i need to KNOW the competition. I need to know how they’re excelling, where do they slack, their office cycle, the chain of command, what makes the staff happy, what makes them upset etc. I do endless research on figuring out how to get the most money when coding procedures because it’s not just about coding the right way. It’s also knowing the many insurance guidelines to get the most income. There are deadlines to comply to, appeals to write, insurance companies to fight with… its a lot. My goal is to be the BEST AT IT and once i notice I’m comfortable, i know something is wrong. The medical billing field is fierce but every billing company i stepped foot into were very mechanical. Not one had an open mind to figure out ways to be proactive. I plan to be a pioneer in this field and i can’t for not one minute….rest.

What are your goals? Who do you want to be. What do you want to do? Find what that is and go full force. In this world you have to go all or nothing! Once you are comfortable, you’re in danger! There is no growth there.

This is episode 3 of The Bus Chronicles. Enjoy your day!

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Nothing More Than Feelings

We respond so hastily to our feelings. We may even pay more attention to our own feelings than the Written Word of God. There have been plenty of times when I felt God’s love for me was nonexistent, but I learned that those feelings were far from the truth. I listened to those lies over and over until scripture went through one ear and came out the other. Listening to our own feelings produces an invisible barrier around the heart that blocks the truth from entering. Ever felt like the pastor was preaching an encouraging, grace filled sermon that you felt didn’t apply to you? Those are feelings taking over preventing The Truth to come to life.

 
God has taught me through various trials that I had to pursue Him even in the hardest, busiest times of my life. When things are going smoothly, reading scripture is easy. Seeking God is no struggle. It’s when life takes over, when 24hrs isn’t enough to get things done, when everyday we’re in survival mode that we may stop making God priority without even knowing it. Making sure rent is paid is super important to all of us. Making sure there is food in the fridge for our children is vital. The enemy is keen to what matters to us the most and may choose to attack those areas to distract us. Yes, we pray and ask God for help but that 1 hour a day we used to seek His face sometimes turns to 10 minutes. Its human to respond to our feelings, to respond to an empty refrigerator, to a negative bank account, to loneliness, but it is spiritual to respond with urgency to the Holy Ghost.

 
Once we begin to push and bring ourselves out of the funk, we begin to see miracles. The struggle may not be over, but the anxiety disappears. We start to see the little love gestures God puts in front of us to show that He is in control… that He cares. There are many verses with stories of people who lost hope and God came through. Read them, and declare the restoration of your hope. Fight through the feelings, don’t give in! God has the last word.

 

Read about Sarah! Pregnant at old age???

Read about the woman with the issue of blood whos hope was restored

Moses also “felt” a certain way about himself

What a Love We Found!

If our strength comes from the joy of the Lord (Nehemiah 8:10), what do we think of that sparks that joy. Is it the things that He has done for us? Miracles, breakthroughs or victories? How about His love? There is a song by Phil Wickham called “Your Love Awakens Me” and I have it on my “Worship” playlist on my phone for many reasons. I can’t unlock the best of what God has for me unless I am fully aware of how much He loves me.

The world has made it difficult. Some of us were raised without fathers. The person responsible for being a leader, a provider, to be our security and our standard of love…nowhere to be found. How could we understand the magnitude of God’s love if we don’t know how it feels to be loved? Some of us placed our hearts in the hands of a spouse and they tore it into pieces leaving nothing but empty promises, betrayal and abandonment. How could we ever trust a Being that isn’t visible or a God that isn’t perceptible? They say to trust in the Lord but trusting the closest people in our lives has proven to guide us towards sorrow and failure.

God is way ahead of us and already knows our deepest troubles hindering us from receiving the fullness of His love. Like scripture says, all we need to do is touch the boarder of His garment for a breakthrough. Push through the crowds, reach out and His power will begin to flow. Sometimes, we must give love another chance. This time, from God. Read scriptures daily and watch how the words come alive for you in your time of need.

When His love awakens us, we begin to see who we are in Him. We are set apart, special, the apple of His eye. He cares for our sorrows, He cares for our pain. He puts peace into our hearts when things seem to be at its worst. I’ve witnessed His love to be more powerful than any other thing that claims to offer love in any other form. Because of His love, He has taught me to love my family like He loves me. Not just an ordinary love but a love that requires sacrifice. I sacrifice myself, my desires, my comforts and my will for them and I will do it over and over until I die. That is what His Love has done for me. It awakened my spirit to be a better person. To lift myself from despair or to break out of my shortcomings. He teaches me and molds me into His image every time I get a taste of the Love He has for me. I can’t measure His love; therefore, I can’t imagine how great it is. When He simply shows me a hint of His heart, I can’t contain myself. His love for me opened my eyes to the sorrow of this world. Suddenly, I want to dedicate my life to the ministry and give it all I have. I mean, He gave me His Only Son.  

We can’t receive His love unless we tunnel our eyes towards Him. Forget what others has done to you and give it one more shot, that’s if you are at your last. You won’t regret it. I don’t speak in the voice of religion but in the heart of… – I understand because that was once me –

Scripture for Comfort AND Conviction- Pay attention

So, I found this new podcast called “Thru the Bible” with James Vernon McGee. He has a few stations. One is for all his sermons, one is for studies on the Old Testament and one is for the New Testament. He covers about 1-4 chapters per episode and each episode is about 90 minutes. I listen as much as I possibly can to increase my knowledge in regards to scripture and Bible history.

At the end of the day, knowledge means nothing

You can learn the bible back and forth but have you lived it? Can you sit down and say “wow, I went through this.” or “wow, I know exactly why this is written.” Can you say that you had the opportunity to do one or two things that Jesus calls us to do for other people or towards other people? Or does scripture only apply to your personal life? When you read scripture, do you have the tendency to apply it to someone else rather than letting Gods Word hit home first?

I have a long way to go but I can say that scripture did more than just comfort me. Scripture convicted me of the things I needed to stop doing or the things that I needed to humble myself to do. I feared scripture knowing that it was going to call me out and put me in my place. Scripture made me think twice about the choices I was going to make or steps I was going to take. There was a time when I tried avoiding the Word of God because it was going to convict me of something that I just didn’t want to admit.

If scripture is doing this to you, then the Word of God is absolutely working in your life. But, if you are able to manipulate scripture to justify your sinful nature, I suggest that you conduct a self-analysis. Scripture does not hide sin and should not be used in a spiteful manner.

The Word of God judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. I know where mine is at. That’s all I need to know nor do I need to emphasizes on the hearts of other people especially since I cant read the heart. Everything I write hits home; the home of MY mind.

I can only write about something that I’ve lived, including this.