$24 Grace

I have $24 dollars of Grace per day

I spent 1 of those dollars on thoughts for tomorrow

I have $23 dollars of Grace to save

Or tomorrows Grace I’d have to borrow.

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Secrets

When you lock up all your deepest secrets,

You will never accept love at its deepest.

When they show you love, how could you believe it?

Because if they knew your secret

They really wouldn’t love you or try to heal it.

The shame will surface and you’ll feel it.

So you keep your secrets a secret.

 

Don’t be scared to let it go

It’s your secret but God already knows.

Open up, let your secrets show.

Healing takes over and mercy flows.

Don’t be nervous just let it blow!

Your secrets to many, are like Gold!

And when someone loves, you feel it whole.

The shame is gone and your face glows.

Sin like scarlet, now you’re snow

when you let your secrets go.

True Convo

My Child! Let’s sit. I missed you so much

I need you to know that you’re loved a bunch.

I know that life has clouded the truth

So let’s start here! tell me, what bothers you?

 

I asked The All Knowing All Powerful and True

Don’t you already know where I’ve been and what I’ve been through?

 

He said of course I do my love, don’t be so confused.

I’d just love to hear from your point of view.

 

I said, I grew up fatherless and the pain stings til this day.

It distorts the truth of who You are, like you’re not here to stay.

He didn’t love me enough to raise me

He didn’t care enough to look for me

He wasn’t there to protect me

He wasn’t there to love me

They say You’re The Father of all who believe

A Father? So that must mean You too will leave.

 

He said, I’m sorry about the gap that put between us.

I want to restore you but you need to trust.

I’m not the son of man that I should lie.

Give me a chance my daughter, don’t pass me by.

 

I yelled, fine I give in! What then do I call you?

God? The Holy one? Master? To me, who are you?

 

He whispered; Call me Daddy to keep you from religious habits.

There is no easy way to do this or grasp it.

We need time, relationship and honesty.

At anytime, just know you can call on me.

In any place in any way, don’t worry my child.

I have all the patience in this world; I can wait a long while.

 

But don’t lose sight of me in the rain.

Then all you will ever see is your pain.

And Sunday school is not in session,

Because this is a flying lesson.

So Hold my hand, we will do this together

I am God. I’ll be with you forever.

A flying lesson? I said swiftly and excited.

That sounds too fun, is it okay to be delighted?

I mean, It seems You’re a bore the way they speak of you.

Don’t you punish and condemn like you’re known to do?

 

Punish and condemn? He questioned and smiled lightly.

Is that all they are saying about me?

Seems like my words are heavily mediated by my people.

You know, you have full access to my steeple?

 

NO! Because you are Holy and too far for me to reach.

Free access to you is not what they teach.

Don’t I have to be right with you to be considered?

Can you just fix me now like a wizard?

Your Holiness seems so cold and sterile.

Obvious to me, my life is in peril

 

He replied to me with so much love and Grace

Your heart I want. Your heart I chase.

Come to me as your are

Your idea of me is so far

I am Love, I am peace, I am your foundation

Believe in me child. I am your salvation.

 

 

Eyes on the prize sister

Eyes on the prize sister,

What’s the reason why?

You look left and there she is

your enemy passing by.

She’s smiling and showing

all her great plans.

Eyes on the prize sister.

It’s a trap, grab my hand.

I’ll help you through it.

Wont beat you to it.

I’ll be by your side.

Helping you to the prize.

Eyes on the prize sister.

What glitters isn’t gold.

Listen to me my friend,

I’ll push you to the goal.

My prayers,

my compassion.

I love you within

Eyes on the prize sister.

When you win, I win.

 

 

Self-righteousness

We have this subtle and very sinful tendency

to look at what happens to someone else

and we think

we are not as bad of a sinner as they are

when the reality is,

we are all sinners at the core.

I urge you;

do not let the circumstances of others

make you think of yourself as righteous

for that self-righteousness in itself

is dreadfully sinful.

There is a difference between said faith and real faith

Said faith is just a transaction; you say your prayer of repentance and are assumed to be saved. It’s a sense of spirituality unconcerned with fellowship but concerned with individuality. There is no freedom, no passion, and sometimes said believers walk away from Christ as a whole because there hasn’t been a complete renewal of the mind.

I always thought I was saved when I first made that vocal transaction during the altar call. Afterwards, I didn’t sense a change in my heart. I was concerned with ensuring I was following the rules and regulations of the church to present myself as “holy” unto man. I didn’t understand what it meant to be Holy and no one explained to me that being Holy wasn’t possible by my own works. The day I decided to submit my life, my will and, my soul to the Lord, was the day I realized that the process of repentance wasn’t a same day procedure.

Repentance was like a dagger in my heart turning and turning with no mercy. The sadness was so crippling that every breath was so painful to take. God opened my eyes to my sin, made me aware of the people I have hurt and had me question my salvation as a whole. I knew where my soul was heading and I begged God to have mercy on me. Since I didn’t know about Grace at the time, I just assumed that my fate in Hell couldn’t be reversed. I begged God to make a way for me. I said “Lord, I know you’re all powerful and you could do anything you please. Could I ask that you make it so that I didn’t have to go to Hell? Could you bend the rules just this one time so that I could have a chance?”. After that day, the Lord began to show me Jesus. Not just the one I routinely sang about in church but the one that died and rose again…for me.

I heard of an older woman who attended church for the majority of her life saying that she wasn’t sure if she was going to Heaven or Hell. Jesus didn’t die on The Cross for us to question if His sacrifice worked or not. If you say that salvation is something you could lose then you may not have it at all to begin with. Teaching that you lose your salvation in just one sinful thought is saying that in one sinful thought, The Cross wasn’t enough. Yesterday, I was upset at how someone lied in my face and in that moment, the Holy Spirit reminded me how I lied to my mom a few months ago. Was my lie strong enough to revoke what The Cross did for me? If that is so, my destination will be forever Hell starting right now. I do my best to live a life pleasing to God but man I mess up A LOT. If it was that easy to lose my salvation…I. Will. Never. Make. IT.

Be careful how you preach salvation. I will never endorse living a sinful life as real Salvation encourages one to live free from sin. If you can stand confidently and say that you’re going to heaven because YOU live holy and YOU are sanctified and because YOU pray, fast, meditate, preach and recycle….id be concerned. You are Holy because of the Blood. You are Holy because Jesus covered your sin so that it doesn’t shine scarlet red before a Holy God.

Sufficient 

You are the cure. 

Sickness moved so quickly.

Fiercely.

Sickness so powerful within me. 
You are the cure. 

You are faster 

with much more fury

and power. 

Sickness left no trace. 

Like it was never there to begin with. 
Your Grace, Mercy and Love is sufficient. 

Why do I write?

It’s a burning passion to get these thoughts on paper. If not, they’d be lost forever. 

How would I return to them? With time, the details fade away and I can’t afford such loss. With time, the story changes to what could have been or what was wished to be. 

Expierence should be quickly documented. Otherwise, it converts into a fable. We need to absorb authentic stories the faces tell and not a made up dream. Real life is just as eventful. Perhaps more. 

If I were to start a movement…

If I were to start a movement. What would it be for?
Defending the REAL Christian. 

But many so called “Christians” would join.

Then I would have to remove of them. 

Which would make me a judge.

Scripture says we shouldn’t do. 

Then I would be kicked out of the movement. 

Then there would be no movement. 

Maybe I just want to stand up for something. 

There is injustice indeed. 

People just hate the modern day Christian. 

But Jesus said that’s how it would be.

Perhaps this movement is anti-Christian. 

I can’t stop The Lord’s plans you see. 

I guess the only movement I can make,

Is the one that starts in me. 

Now, let US make man 

Before my eyes, I didn’t have to look far. I didn’t have to search vigorously, or even willingly. I simply touched the border of Jesus’ garment and it hit me like a ton of bricks. 

“KG, let’s start a daily devotional. Even if you have to start at Genesis. You know you’d find something new.”

I went for it. Genesis 1:1 God created the heavens and the earth…

Wow God, I see what people mean when they say You make something out of nothing. The Earth had no form, darkness everywhere. And You? So sovereign and so in control, spoke light and it became. But here I am stressing about my finances as Christmas approaches  not realizing that with just one word, You can make a miracle. 

That was just the beginning. I continued to read and I bumped into this gem. 

Gen 1:26 Then God said, “Now let’s make humans who will be like us. 

Let’s?! 

Us?!

It’s clear as day! Jesus and the Holy Spirit were present during the creation of the earth. 

Living in a society that tries to offer hope from someone or something other than Jesus brings uncertainty but reading this gives me confidence to stand for what is true. 

Jesus is true. The comfort of the Holy Spirit is tangible and proven. God’s powerful essence, unquestionable. 

To even think that the stars in the sky, the moon, the sun just simply appeared by accident requires more faith than to believe a powerful, almighty being Who created it all. 

Am I that human? Am I like You? Let that be my desire every single day. 

You gotta know

@authkg