Shadows equal evil.
Light equals good.
But we need both shadows and light to determine depth. To determine perspective.
It’s a shadow that lets us see an object; where it sits, it’s dimensions, it’s color. If there were no shadows, we couldn’t see a handmade vase because the light would overexpose it and our simple weak eyes couldn’t interpret its beauty
A baby has to feel irritated by hunger in order for her to start crying. How would a parent know she’s hungry if she didn’t cry? If there wasn’t irritation? Irritation being a shadow? As Christians, we are encouraged to rebuke irritation. But it’s the pain that keeps a baby alive. Otherwise, The baby wouldn’t cry and would therefore die.
FEAR keeps us from the path of a dangerous animal. SURVIVAL
PAIN reminds us not to make the same mistakes. LESSONS
SORROW Makes us more compassionate. HUMILITY
I just KNOW that there is so much I don’t know! This here reminds me of how human I am and how I am so destined to sin that my livelihood relies on what I normally ask God to rid of. Knowing this, my prayers are different. I don’t ask God to remove these things but that His will is done in my life. He knows what’s best for me.
I read a verse that hit me this morning. I had to read the verse and the context a few times to realize how scripture was happening in my face and I didn’t even know it.
I remember confiding in church leadership of my habitual sin that caught up to me. Sin that didn’t let me be at peace with myself because I was so guilty. I was hoping for restoration but instead, I was beat up by the law.
In this particular scripture, Paul says that through the Spirit, leaders/ mentors/ Pastors or anyone in the position to care for people, should handle such a situation in meekness and not with a holier than thou attitude. The scripture tells said leaders to be careful that the matter is handled Scripturally. Why?
“Lest you also be tempted”
If we choose to respond to our brother’s sin without being kind and gentle, we open the door for Satan to attack us in the same manner as he did the failing brother.
After reading this, I had a flashback and remembered everyone who judged me terribly. I’d like to say it was about 4 people who went over the top to really hurt me. 4/4 of those people fell or are in the same sin I sought help for. Thats 100%. Thats scripture happening before my eyes.
Gal 6:1 Brethren, if a man be overtaken in a fault, ye which are spiritual, restore such an one in the spirit of meekness; considering thyself, lest thou also be tempted
Good evening ladies and gentlemen,
It’s been months since my last post and I’m actually pleased about it. I’ve been too busy living to write. My notebook is empty, my google drive a lot cleaner and my mind… content. I have a new outlook in life and this view allows less desire for blogging.
It was a Sunday like today when I looked at my husband and said “Let’s move to Florida”. He always wanted to move but he patiently waited for me to give the okay. Well I gave the okay and man, I was scared.
4 months in and I don’t see myself ever looking back. Unless of course there is an emergency that I’d have to pack up and leave but other than that, Florida is home. Imagine if I let fear control me. I would have missed out on a lot.
I’m not pretending there wasn’t a struggle. There was struggle and we still see struggle today. It’s just that I’m so thankful for God guiding us and helping us through. For showing His sovereignty in the midst of turmoil.
I have great friends. Great co-workers. I’ve seen so much favor. I’ve witnessed miracles and wonders. More strength came upon me. More growth within me. More Joy in my heart. Sometimes you need to be further from comfort to see more clearly. To feel more often. To stop and absorb God’s goodness. To thrive.
There is purpose when I am and I’m just anxious to see what’s next.
When I look back to the days when I cried everyday. The days of hurt, abuse, betrayal, loneliness and desperation, I realize that there was purpose in it all. I needed the pain to grow. Without the pain, I couldn’t see the promising road ahead of me. I’ll never go back and redo those days. Those days to me are GOLD.
To my mistakes
To my accusers
To my enemies
To anyone who did me wrong.
Thanks to you, My feet are on solid ground.
This trophy is FOR YOU
Take it. 🏆
We have this subtle and very sinful tendency
to look at what happens to someone else
and we think
we are not as bad of a sinner as they are
when the reality is,
we are all sinners at the core.
I urge you;
do not let the circumstances of others
make you think of yourself as righteous
for that self-righteousness in itself
is dreadfully sinful.
Said faith is just a transaction; you say your prayer of repentance and are assumed to be saved. It’s a sense of spirituality unconcerned with fellowship but concerned with individuality. There is no freedom, no passion, and sometimes said believers walk away from Christ as a whole because there hasn’t been a complete renewal of the mind.
I always thought I was saved when I first made that vocal transaction during the altar call. Afterwards, I didn’t sense a change in my heart. I was concerned with ensuring I was following the rules and regulations of the church to present myself as “holy” unto man. I didn’t understand what it meant to be Holy and no one explained to me that being Holy wasn’t possible by my own works. The day I decided to submit my life, my will and, my soul to the Lord, was the day I realized that the process of repentance wasn’t a same day procedure.
Repentance was like a dagger in my heart turning and turning with no mercy. The sadness was so crippling that every breath was so painful to take. God opened my eyes to my sin, made me aware of the people I have hurt and had me question my salvation as a whole. I knew where my soul was heading and I begged God to have mercy on me. Since I didn’t know about Grace at the time, I just assumed that my fate in Hell couldn’t be reversed. I begged God to make a way for me. I said “Lord, I know you’re all powerful and you could do anything you please. Could I ask that you make it so that I didn’t have to go to Hell? Could you bend the rules just this one time so that I could have a chance?”. After that day, the Lord began to show me Jesus. Not just the one I routinely sang about in church but the one that died and rose again…for me.
I heard of an older woman who attended church for the majority of her life saying that she wasn’t sure if she was going to Heaven or Hell. Jesus didn’t die on The Cross for us to question if His sacrifice worked or not. If you say that salvation is something you could lose then you may not have it at all to begin with. Teaching that you lose your salvation in just one sinful thought is saying that in one sinful thought, The Cross wasn’t enough. Yesterday, I was upset at how someone lied in my face and in that moment, the Holy Spirit reminded me how I lied to my mom a few months ago. Was my lie strong enough to revoke what The Cross did for me? If that is so, my destination will be forever Hell starting right now. I do my best to live a life pleasing to God but man I mess up A LOT. If it was that easy to lose my salvation…I. Will. Never. Make. IT.
Be careful how you preach salvation. I will never endorse living a sinful life as real Salvation encourages one to live free from sin. If you can stand confidently and say that you’re going to heaven because YOU live holy and YOU are sanctified and because YOU pray, fast, meditate, preach and recycle….id be concerned. You are Holy because of the Blood. You are Holy because Jesus covered your sin so that it doesn’t shine scarlet red before a Holy God.
Psa 4:4 Tremble with fear, and stop sinning. Think about this when you go to bed, and calm down.
Before bed I always examine how I handled the day. Was I grateful? Could I have handled things better? Should I have left a few things unsaid? I just thank God that He allows me to analyze myself and expose my own flaws. I can always choose to place excuses before them. The fact is, excuses bring no growth aaaaaand I’m trying to get somewhere. 😉
Eze 24:12 “‘Jerusalem might work hard to scrub away her stains. But that ‘rust’ will not go away! Only the fire of punishment will remove it.
Covering up our own sin is like wasting energy scrubbing rust off of iron.
When my sin was deep, I did my best to lie, cover it up, justify it, pretend it never happend but as I read Ezekiel, no one gets away with sin without His punishment.
As humans, we have a tendency to avoid sufferings. We don’t want to be punished. We don’t want the Word of God to be fulfilled when it comes to our sin. We only want God’s word about His blessings and prosperity to manifest when we snap our fingers.
The more we try to avoid His punishment, the more we find ourselves rotating in the same sin we claimed to have repented over months ago… Years ago.
The only way to stop doing it for good (or as frequent as usual) is to accept God’s punishment. Get real about your sin and go through God’s fire like a mature believer.
God punishes us because He loves us. Think about it. If He were to simply kill us, we would go to Hell. Instead, He gives us a chance to change our ways on earth even if it means we have to suffer just a little compared to eternity. That’s Grace.
Do you comprehend what it means to pray an honest prayer?
Lamentations 3:18 I said to myself, “I no longer have any hope that the LORD will help me.”
The Lord reveals to us that it is normal to have doubt. Today I read chapter 3 of Lamentations and I was comforted by Jeremiah’s honest, sorrowful prayer. It helped me understand that I can be honest to God with my doubts, fear, sins, insecurities and troubles.
I’m glad that I can express vocally my true feelings and intentions deep within. I’m glad that God allows me to confront my sins and bring them to Him in prayer.
Many times I’ve put up a wall in front of my sin and even block myself from the truth. The lies were so deep that the sin remained untouched due to denial. I praise God for the Holy Spirit that continues to convict me daily and prompts me to analyze myself. I’m fully convinced that self-analysis is a GIFT and not everyone has it.
I constantly think about a few people who have been successful at lying to themselves. I question “how?” but then I immediately recall myself doing the same thing. The problem with me was that my lies haunted me like a legit scary ghost. I couldn’t sleep, eat, think clearly or find comfort because my mind was way too focused on putting up a wall, putting on a mask, sweeping the dirt under the carpet etc. Covering my own sin was a full time job and it robbed me from focusing on anything else. I couldn’t focus on scripture, learning about God, ministry, spreading the gospel or anything. I had no time or energy to do anything else because I was too busy using that time to cover my sin.
God wants us to be honest; to open up and stop making excuses for our sins. We need to stop blame shifting and take responsibility for our actions and doubts. The longer it takes for us to tell God, the longer we suffer and the more we find ourselves lying…to ourself.
There is freedom in Christ when we are honest and repent. Rather than having to cover and lie over our sin, the Lord takes it and tosses it to the deepest part if the sea. We won’t have to bother with it anymore.
Why carry the burden?
I wish I was able to cope with failure in this manner.
Lv1. You mess up badly
Lv2. You realize that if anyone were to find out about your screw up, you’d be in deep fecal material.
Lv3. You drown in the deepest guilt of all time.
Lv4. Make the ultimate decision to pretend it never happened.
There are plenty ways to justify level 4.
“God forgets my sin when I ask for forgivness. Therefore, I can pretend it never happened.”
Forgetting and pretending are 2 totally different things. When you forget something, you acknowledge that a situation was once true. Then you choose not to go back to let it condemn you. When you pretend, you’re lying.
How about the awful excuse “I dont remember” or even trying to make up an entirely different story to replace what actually happened.
The worst one is to 100% lie and say, “No, I never did that. My hands are clean”
If you can easily fool yourself and literally pretend that your failure never ever happened, check thyself. A true believer in Grace does not think this way. We take failure and sin for what it is and embrace it. Grace believers turn sin into testimony.
Denial is not coping, it’s insanity.