Sustained 

Today has been a spiritually tough day. God has been shedding His light over me and revealed a few things in me that doesn’t please Him. 

God reminded me of where I came from. He reminded me of how He found me. He reminded me of where He took me out of. This alone humbled me greatly and ultimately reminded me that I’m am simply unworthy of what I felt was owed to me. 

See, God doesn’t owe me anything. How dare I think that any one of my works or actions filled God’s “favor meter”. God favored me even when I was a rotten sinner. 

My works didn’t make me Holier. He already made me Holy through His death on the cross. 

The standard that I made against myself didn’t make me perfect. His grace is the standard that I already meet. 

My efforts to be good didn’t make me more righteous. Righteousness is embeded to all who believe in the Son. 

My worries and anxieties doesn’t prepare my future. My future is a memory for the Lord. It’s already put together 

So all this work, all this competition, all my efforts, all my worries, all my insecurities, doubts and pride has been a waste of energy and a sign of faithlessness. The victory is won. You God, have already won this war that I choose to battle every single day. What a waste of LIFE. 

Today I choose to look at others better than myself. That’s what you ask in scripture. I choose to always remember where you found me and never forget where my heart was before You found me. Thank you for alerting me of my sins and converting them into Glory.  You will never let me FALL!

“You will never never never never let the righteous fall!”

Psalms 55:22 Cast your cares on the Lord and He will sustain you; He will never let the righteous fall. 

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Victory Screech!!!

I’ve been working at my job for almost 4 years which means that I have more than 17,000 emails in my inbox alone. I can search a word and all the emails pop up from up to 4 years ago.

My crazy storm was between Feb 2013 to September 2013 and I pretty much emailed a good friend everyday about everything that I was going through at that time. So today, I decided to go back and read those emails. I am so happy that as I was reading, none of it made me feel the pain I felt. Currently, I feel beyond victorious.

Victorious because of how God picked me up and placed my feet on higher ground. Everything I lost, God restored it. “He restored it 100 fold, I was tried in the fire but I came out as GOLD”. The enemy didn’t win whatsoever. God used my situation to demonstrate how much He loved me and how He was on MY side the entire time.  I wouldn’t be where I am today if it wasn’t for my storm. If it wasn’t for the people who lied to me, spoke badly about me, stole from me, hated me, mistreated me, abandoned me, betrayed me and looked down on me, I wouldn’t be so victorious today.

So hear this, enemy, what you thought was going to kill me, made me a WHOLE lot stronger. It made me wiser and smarter. It made me feel loved and brought me extremely closer to Jehovah GOD! You tried to hurt me and I can admit, it did hurt, but you can’t take the joy I feel today! I’ve come so far in life that I would never trade my storm for a moment of peace.

You gave me a wonderful renewed Husband, a second child, a beautiful apartment, promotions, wisdom & knowledge in scripture, 3 leadership positions in church, I’m closer to my extended family, healing, awesome genuine friends that love me without conditions, I attend a beautiful church with wonderful, non-judgmental Pastors, I’ve organized events, started this blog, learned how to draw, relationships have been restored, talented daughter, my father is back in my life, I can go ON and ON!

My life is beyond restored. I am grateful for all God has done and all it took was for me to confess my sin to God AND man, disclosed all SECRETS and not pretend that they didn’t exist, humble myself and endure the consequences. I accepted the struggle because I knew I needed God. I sacrificed everything I loved for Him.

Ill never take back my storm, I will never wish to be someone else because I worked so hard to be this person today. I don’t regret anything, I fear nothing and I’m looking forward to greater things. Before anyone tries to act like they know the slightest idea of who I am, sit down, because in all honesty, YOU HAVE NO IDEA.

God is faithful. Toodles.

Human Perfection Does Not Exist

You know the 10 commandments right? Let’s recap.

  1. You shall have no other gods before Me.
  2. You shall not make idols.
  3. You shall not take the name of the LORD your God in vain.
  4. Remember the Sabbath day, to keep it holy.
  5. Honor your father and your mother.
  6. You shall not murder.
  7. You shall not commit adultery.
  8. You shall not steal.
  9. You shall not bear false witness against your neighbor.
  10. You shall not covet

These law given to Moses by God are perfect. They are our guidelines to live a life pleasing to God. Now, ask yourself a question. Are you keeping all of them on a daily basis?

  • Is God the absolute first person in your life? Hehe think twice. Did you skip church one day to be with that boy?
  • Are you worshipping any idols? What’s that in your hand? Oh its a phone? Why won’t you leave that at home for a week or so? Oh you can’t?
  • Did you say OMG today? Did you say, TGIF because Friday you’re going clubbing?
  • What do you do Sundays after church? I’m sure the answer isn’t “I went to another church until 12AM” or “ I prayed all day until I went beddy bye bye”
  • Did you ever talk back to your parents? Yes you did, sit down.
  • Did you ever kill a person? Of course you didn’t good for you. Did you ever kill a person’s dreams or character?
  • Oh my favorite. Did you ever cheat on your spouse? Aww how faithful. How about that chick you were looking at on IG twerking? How about that dude posing in skin tight undies. MCM?
  • Oh good, you’ve never robbed a bank? Praise the Lord Praise the Lord. Go back to welfare and give back all the money you used for food stamps. Does someone need to amend their taxes? That pen you were chewing on, where did you get it? Is that your boyfriend you flirting with on the phone or does he belong to someone else? (this can apply to may commandments but I just want to put it here
  • “KG, what this ‘bearing false witness’?”  Sit down, based on your Instagram, you did it 1hr ago. #gossip
  • “KG, what is this covet?” If you read my very first blog you would know the answer to this but ill tell you. Stop being jealous of that girl that looks cuter than you. The effort you’re making to be like her #copying #extremediet etc. is coveting.

Now that we all agree that no one here is perfect, let’s move on.

Why does God tell us to follow these rules in order to go to Heaven if we obviously can’t keep them? Well, don’t you think God already knows we can’t? This explains the Cross. God sent His son to die so that we can live and go to heaven if we believe in Him. The only reason why God communicates with us even when we don’t follow these laws is because of Jesus. I’m not giving the okay to break the laws no no no. I’m saying that if ever we do, we HAVE to ask for forgiveness to be forgiven forever and for good. I would love to say more about this but the shorter the blog the better. You guys have short attention spans.

Grace.

Salvation is a gift and its not based on what we do or our spiritual performance. We will fail every day. That’s just a fact. We want to live in LOVE with God and we want to obey Him because we LOVE HIM! And when we fail, we want to get back up and receive this gift of forgiveness and salvation. We need to trust that the Cross is enough to pay for our sins. So, The end

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Take Root: Jesus is more than that

As humans, we only seek the verse in the bible that corresponds to our situation. If I am sick, I search for verses about those who were sick and healed. If I am broke, I search for verses that speak of prosperity and seasons of abundance. If I am sad, I seek verses on how the Lord catches my tears in bottles. When I am single, I search for verses that speak of marriage, faith, declaration and, purity.

As devoted Christians, we are making a huge mistake. I’m not saying that it’s bad to look for verses in hopes to overcome our problems, no no. I’m saying that there is more to the life of Jesus than the “specifics”.

I was one that looked for the “specifics”. It brought hope for the moment but I wasn’t well informed of the power of that verse. In order to fully comprehend the potential of that ONE verse, we have to fully comprehend the faith behind it.

The reason for the cross is much higher than the hope for healing. The death on the cross is above and beyond the lack of food in the fridge. The death on the cross tramples on the hope of finally getting a wife and a family. The death on the cross is the reason why we won’t suffer in hell fire for eternity. The death of Jesus is the reason why we have access to the presence of the Holy One to even ASK for a boo. Jesus is the reason why we have communication with the Most High God so we need to be knowin’ lol.

The root of the bible is the life, death and resurrection of Jesus Christ our Lord. If we don’t take interest of this, the “specifics” will go through one ear and come out the other in the moment of distress. You want your garden to flourish? Deepen your root. You want a husband? Well, dig your nose in the word without picking out your interests and see the mighty power of God manifest in that category. Not only will you get your husband, but you’ll keep him. How bout that?

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God is not dumb: You get what you plant

Galatians 6:7 Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows.

Galatians 6:7 has proven true in my life. I had the chance to plot destruction many many times but I couldn’t go forward with them. I knew my plans would definitely have an outcome that would please me but I always remembered Gods character when it came to earthly consequences.

There was a point that I didn’t believe in Galatians 6:7. I went around thinking that my actions here on earth didn’t have any consequences. I DON’T believe that the Lord repays us as our sins deserve but I do believe that our actions will come back to us one way or another.

If you dig a hole for someone to fall in, the person who will actually fall in it is you. Proverbs 26:27

I laugh when I look back to those moments when people schemed against me and prospered. At the time, I thought they were super successful. Oh, but today, God has been faithful to His word when He said “God will not be mocked, you reap what you sow”.

When God says “He will not be mocked” He’s saying that we may think we are getting away with it now, but God is going to make sure we know that His word stands clear. We will not get away with it.

I recall one of my schemers flaunting a piece of what had been taken from me. The Lord knew how hurt I was and how badly I wanted to see my schemer tossed down a flight of stairs. BUT, the Lord said, “Be still and know that I am God”. So I did. I prayed, prayed and prayed with no answer in return but I knew an answer would come eventually.

I held in so much anger, I held back so many tears, I held back so many right hooks, I HELD BACK ALL HATRED IN ME! I was held back by the nails that crucified my sins. OH JESUS! I wanted to reap great and wonderful things. If I did what my flesh desired, I wouldn’t have all the great things I have today.

I am living proof that we all reap what we sow. For those who know me and know what I have been through can take that verse to the bank with confidence. I planted lies, deceit, hate, sneakiness and whaaaaaaaaat, people lied, fooled and hated me in return.

It’s a cycle my friends. For those who lied, fooled and hated me will reap the saaaaaaaaame thing. If you stole from someone, be prepared in prayer when someone takes the same thing away from you. If you lied to someone, be prepared that the truth WILL come out eventually. If you are being sneaky, be prepared to get fount out.

That’s just how it is. If you plant sunflowers, you get sunflowers. If you plant rutabagas, you will get rutabagas. If you plant peppers, you are not going to get apples. If you plant apples, you are not going to get bananas.

So…

If you plant robbery, you will get extorted.

If you plant lies, you will get lied to and found out.

So check yourself, before you wreck yourself.

BUT

If you plant love, you get loved

If you plant forgiveness, you get forgiven.

If you plant hugs, you get hugs.

If you plant Jesus, you get Jesus.

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Not built for guilt: God’s message to me

I’m so grateful that the Lord thinks of me so thoroughly that when I have an internal battle with myself, He quickly shows me a solution. A year ago, I sat at my cubicle in tears feeling so unworthy, guilty, condemned and depressed. My co-workers saw me in tears every day that month that they didn’t question me about it. Yes, I had sinned so horribly that I was reaping what I have sowed, BUT! With every failure, God had a plan. My sin was so deep, but His Grace was so much more.

My sorrow was so bad that I had to go to the bathroom to cry bitterly. I’m talking about crying tears that soaked my face. I’m talking about being so distraught that the next breath was so hard to take. I’m talking about PAIN that felt like it could not be extinguished by anything but death.

Then, one day I read a devotional on guilt.

Facts:

  • God does not condemn those who are in Christ -Romans 8:1
  • We are not built for guilt
  • We are made whole by the sacrifice of Jesus
  • Guilt has no legal right in our lives because Jesus paid for our sin and misdeeds.
  • When we feel guilty, we need to send it back from where it came from. Hell.

While reading these facts, you’d figure I was all good… It didn’t work.

I took the next step and I prayed for myself. I laid hands over my own head and asked God to tell me something. I felt like I was going nowhere in my spiritual life and I couldn’t accept Gods Grace to rid of my guilt.

One night I went to sleep and then, God spoke to me.

He told me 3 very important things that I needed to hear.

  1. You are on the right track. Keep doing what you are doing. Keep seeking my face and don’t give up. Im happy with you. I love you.
  2. You will hear something today at 9 oclock
  3. You are always late to work, church, everything but ill speak to you about that later.

I woke up and I think I wrote all this down.

I didn’t know if God was talking about 9am or 9pm but I knew something was going to happen.

9 am came and nothing. I’m like okay, I guess its 9pm.

I went to church that night and the preaching began. I WAS SO BORED!!! I’m like, “C’mon, I doubt this person has anything to do with this 9 o’clock thing. I have no idea what she is talking about.” So then I opened my bible to read it because I didn’t want to waste my precious time at church learning nothing.

8:59PM– I opened my bible expecting nothing. Turned to a random page and started reading

9:00 PM– Mark 15:25- It was nine o’clock in the morning when they nailed Jesus to the cross.

After so many tears of sorrow, I cried tears of JOY!
God was telling me that I did not have to worry about my sin ANYMORE! Jesus was crucified and he died to wash my sins away. If I remember my sin one more time to condemn myself, then Jesus’ death on the cross was meaningless.

How amazing is this? At 9pm I read about Jesus’ death that occurred at 9am!

God understands that sometimes, WE don’t understand. Have faith, God will help you. His salvation for us is not a mystery. We don’t need to read between the lines about His death on the cross. Don’t get so complicated. Jesus died, and if we believe, we are saved. Nothing more and nothing less. John 3:16

God still didn’t speak to me about being late all the time though. And I’m always late, STILL. Oh God have mercy!

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I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO! Seek, you shall find.

A friend asked me a question about a tough situation she is going through. When she explained the details, I couldn’t give her a definite answer. The question was obviously very spiritual and personal that I was afraid to say the wrong thing. I was afraid because I really didn’t know what God favored in her circumstance. All I could say was (in simple words) “If you want to know the answer, just dedicate a fasting that focuses on an answer. Perhaps God can answer you in a dream, or vision.” Sometimes, we go through situations where the answer to the problem isn’t clear. In our eyes, both sides are agreeable in their own way. In our eyes, there is no sin between two paths that leads to the end. Sometimes, we really just don’t know what to do.

I remember once being in that same situation. I was desperate to know what a loved one was doing behind my back and deep down I knew the answer but I didn’t have enough proof to back it up. The signs were here and there and every time I asked someone to confirm my suspicion, they couldn’t conquer. The situation broke me to pieces.

Everything was so confusing. It was eating me inside like a parasite sucking up all life the in me. Then one night I went to church and the pastor prayed a specific prayer for those who are seeking revelation. She asked for it to be revealed in a dream for those who really needed it. I was like “HEY! I RECEIVE THAT PRAYER, GIMMIE DAT”

After service, I went home, shut off life and turned on prayer. I made coffee strong enough to keep me up for days. I read the bible, I listened to preaching after preaching, I took notes…ugh, I did everything I knew I could do to get that connection with the Lord. THEN, the main character in my dilemma called me. My suspicion grew with that phone call but again, it wasn’t conclusive.

After a few hours of being in God’s presence, I finally went to sleep…

I had a vivid dream about my situation. My dream covered the emotions, intentions, motives, desires and outcomes of all parties involved in this drama. At the end, God told me to pray for that person. Oh how I didn’t want to.

My prayer was:

“Dear God, I DON’T LIKE THIS PERSON. THIS PERSON MAKES MY BLOOD BOIL AND EVAPORATE IN THE AIR FORMING A CONDENCED DARK CLOUD ABOVE MY HEAD THAT I CANNOT SHOO AWAY! But…You, my LORD are telling me to pray, and so I am. LOOOOOOORRRRRRD! Do what you have to do in that person because I really can’t deal with it. Please help me be still and know that YOU are God and I am NOT!”

At the end, the dream finally confirmed to me that I was going to have the victory and much much more.

I believe that if we show the Lord how much we need something from Him, He will answer faithfully. How do we show Him how badly we need something? Well, we give Him the only thing we have to offer: praise, 100% of our effort, sacrifice and our time. It works, I’ve witnessed it. So, do it too

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The Capo Factor: Christian Authenticity

My maiden name is Kenia Capo meaning “Abode of God and a leader.”

Who am I?

I am 24 years of age, married, with 2 kids. I work full-time and I spend the rest of the day with my family.

Now, ill get detailed, short and to the point.

I am too young for the life I live but I love it.

I’ve been through the toughest storms one can imagine and through that storm; I became who I am today.

I defend those who have fallen

I take time for those who are weak.

I am extremely outspoken for Christ and NOONE intimidates me. (Except my supervisor Noah) I really don’t know why.

Its not that I’m trying to be tough, I just am. It’s wired in.

I don’t tolerate people who enjoy making others feel inferior.

I don’t tolerate persecution of those who sin

I don’t believe in salvation based on human works

I believe Jesus was crucified for our sins, died and, resurrected on the 3rd day.

I believe the cross is enough, period, point blank period period.

I’m sure people stalk all my blogs, social networks, FB, to see if I wrote badly about them. (I don’t know this for a fact so please don’t you worry. Keep peepin’. You might learn something) if they wanted a decent shout out, they should have treated me better.

This is my story and I own it.

My blog is about my experiences and what the word of God has to say about it.

I’m not here to pretend I’m holy holy holy because I am far from it without Jesus.

I am here to represent CHRISTIAN AUTHENTICITY.

Authenticity:  of undisputed origin; genuine.

I am real, not pretending to be someone I’m not.

I get angry,

I talk back with an attitude sometimes.

I’ve gossiped

I think highly of myself

I broke commandments

I’ve lied

I know my position with the Lord and I seek Him daily for Grace and forgiveness because I AM ROTTEN. I am nothing without Him and it is because of Him that I stand to witness and testify for His Glory. PRAISE GOD!

If you read my “about me” post and cringed wondering if you should read a blog from such a sinner like me, click that little X on the corner of this window and go along your merrily way of being self-righteous.

For those who can admit their flaws and need to know solutions to every rotten sin in their life, read on my brother and sisters of Christ.

The Lord remembers that we are…dust.

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