You reject Jesus
Because you consider yourselves unworthy of
You reject Jesus
Because you consider yourselves unworthy of
I’m at ease when i find myself struggling in the daily. I am working endlessly on enhancing my Medical Billing knowledge and it has required me to constantly step out my comfort zone. In order for me to be the best, i need to KNOW the competition. I need to know how they’re excelling, where do they slack, their office cycle, the chain of command, what makes the staff happy, what makes them upset etc. I do endless research on figuring out how to get the most money when coding procedures because it’s not just about coding the right way. It’s also knowing the many insurance guidelines to get the most income. There are deadlines to comply to, appeals to write, insurance companies to fight with… its a lot. My goal is to be the BEST AT IT and once i notice I’m comfortable, i know something is wrong. The medical billing field is fierce but every billing company i stepped foot into were very mechanical. Not one had an open mind to figure out ways to be proactive. I plan to be a pioneer in this field and i can’t for not one minute….rest.
What are your goals? Who do you want to be. What do you want to do? Find what that is and go full force. In this world you have to go all or nothing! Once you are comfortable, you’re in danger! There is no growth there.
This is episode 3 of The Bus Chronicles. Enjoy your day!
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Ever felt a whole lot of pressure because of someone’s high expectation of you? I know I have but one thing that settles my anxiety is knowing that as long as I do MY best, disappointing those who are watching me has no effect on my own view of myself.
We can’t take responsibility of how someone chooses to look up to you or look down at you. We all wake up and face a new day with a new attitude and a new outlook in life that effects the way we view others and how others view us. In this emotionally inconsistent world, we have to prepare to impress someone or let someone down. And not be too boastful or too ashamed.
Don’t fret over anyone’s view of you. Don’t beat yourself over the head when you’ve disappointed someone because in the end, you can’t please the world. You see how pleasing God first comes to play? I’m not saying you have to have it right all the time, I’m saying that on your day to day decisions, acknowledge God. For every action, take a moment and ask God for guidance. Do YOUR best, and God will handle the rest. Cliche i know. Lol
That is all for bus chronicles episode 1. Have a great day!
When you lock up all your deepest secrets,
You will never accept love at its deepest.
When they show you love, how could you believe it?
Because if they knew your secret
They really wouldn’t love you or try to heal it.
The shame will surface and you’ll feel it.
So you keep your secrets a secret.
Don’t be scared to let it go
It’s your secret but God already knows.
Open up, let your secrets show.
Healing takes over and mercy flows.
Don’t be nervous just let it blow!
Your secrets to many, are like Gold!
And when someone loves, you feel it whole.
The shame is gone and your face glows.
Sin like scarlet, now you’re snow
when you let your secrets go.
My Child! Let’s sit. I missed you so much
I need you to know that you’re loved a bunch.
I know that life has clouded the truth
So let’s start here! tell me, what bothers you?
I asked The All Knowing All Powerful and True
Don’t you already know where I’ve been and what I’ve been through?
He said of course I do my love, don’t be so confused.
I’d just love to hear from your point of view.
I said, I grew up fatherless and the pain stings til this day.
It distorts the truth of who You are, like you’re not here to stay.
He didn’t love me enough to raise me
He didn’t care enough to look for me
He wasn’t there to protect me
He wasn’t there to love me
They say You’re The Father of all who believe
A Father? So that must mean You too will leave.
He said, I’m sorry about the gap that put between us.
I want to restore you but you need to trust.
I’m not the son of man that I should lie.
Give me a chance my daughter, don’t pass me by.
I yelled, fine I give in! What then do I call you?
God? The Holy one? Master? To me, who are you?
He whispered; Call me Daddy to keep you from religious habits.
There is no easy way to do this or grasp it.
We need time, relationship and honesty.
At anytime, just know you can call on me.
In any place in any way, don’t worry my child.
I have all the patience in this world; I can wait a long while.
But don’t lose sight of me in the rain.
Then all you will ever see is your pain.
And Sunday school is not in session,
Because this is a flying lesson.
So Hold my hand, we will do this together
I am God. I’ll be with you forever.
A flying lesson? I said swiftly and excited.
That sounds too fun, is it okay to be delighted?
I mean, It seems You’re a bore the way they speak of you.
Don’t you punish and condemn like you’re known to do?
Punish and condemn? He questioned and smiled lightly.
Is that all they are saying about me?
Seems like my words are heavily mediated by my people.
You know, you have full access to my steeple?
NO! Because you are Holy and too far for me to reach.
Free access to you is not what they teach.
Don’t I have to be right with you to be considered?
Can you just fix me now like a wizard?
Your Holiness seems so cold and sterile.
Obvious to me, my life is in peril
He replied to me with so much love and Grace
Your heart I want. Your heart I chase.
Come to me as your are
Your idea of me is so far
I am Love, I am peace, I am your foundation
Believe in me child. I am your salvation.
We respond so hastily to our feelings. We may even pay more attention to our own feelings than the Written Word of God. There have been plenty of times when I felt God’s love for me was nonexistent, but I learned that those feelings were far from the truth. I listened to those lies over and over until scripture went through one ear and came out the other. Listening to our own feelings produces an invisible barrier around the heart that blocks the truth from entering. Ever felt like the pastor was preaching an encouraging, grace filled sermon that you felt didn’t apply to you? Those are feelings taking over preventing The Truth to come to life.
God has taught me through various trials that I had to pursue Him even in the hardest, busiest times of my life. When things are going smoothly, reading scripture is easy. Seeking God is no struggle. It’s when life takes over, when 24hrs isn’t enough to get things done, when everyday we’re in survival mode that we may stop making God priority without even knowing it. Making sure rent is paid is super important to all of us. Making sure there is food in the fridge for our children is vital. The enemy is keen to what matters to us the most and may choose to attack those areas to distract us. Yes, we pray and ask God for help but that 1 hour a day we used to seek His face sometimes turns to 10 minutes. Its human to respond to our feelings, to respond to an empty refrigerator, to a negative bank account, to loneliness, but it is spiritual to respond with urgency to the Holy Ghost.
Once we begin to push and bring ourselves out of the funk, we begin to see miracles. The struggle may not be over, but the anxiety disappears. We start to see the little love gestures God puts in front of us to show that He is in control… that He cares. There are many verses with stories of people who lost hope and God came through. Read them, and declare the restoration of your hope. Fight through the feelings, don’t give in! God has the last word.
Eyes on the prize sister,
What’s the reason why?
You look left and there she is
your enemy passing by.
She’s smiling and showing
all her great plans.
Eyes on the prize sister.
It’s a trap, grab my hand.
I’ll help you through it.
Wont beat you to it.
I’ll be by your side.
Helping you to the prize.
Eyes on the prize sister.
What glitters isn’t gold.
Listen to me my friend,
I’ll push you to the goal.
I love you within
Eyes on the prize sister.
When you win, I win.
If you haven’t realized God’s character yet, you wouldn’t receive this blog the way it is intended to be received.
Only the courageous could pray “Let your will be done”. God’s will for us is not to be comfortable, it is not easy and its process produces tears like never before. “Let Your will be done” you say? Let’s examine those words…
Are you prepared to “let” and not fight it? Imagine caring for a toddler who loves to play in mud. Now, you spend a lot of your energy keeping him from going near mud. You sit him down but he gets up again, you put one of those child leashes on him and he screams, you take him elsewhere but you see him yearning for that mud. Then, a stranger passes by and says, “Just let him play in the mud”. Finally, you let him go and for some odd reason, there is peace. You sit down, relax, read a book peacefully knowing he is in the mud enjoying himself. Yes, in the back of your mind you know you must clean him up but that struggle doesn’t amount to the struggle of keeping him away from the mud. Letting God do His will in your life means that you are aware of the mess that will follow and can maintain your peace in the process. You obey His word and refrain from using alternatives to make the process easier. A great prize comes with a great fight and God’s will is never insignificant.
God is clear when He speaks about His will for all the believers.
Mark 16:15 And he said to them, “Go into all the world and proclaim the gospel to the whole creation.
If our deepest desires do not connect with Mark 16:15, I don’t think our plans would be aligned with God’s will for us. Yes, we have desires like getting married, having children, buying a home etc. but if those desires do not connect with God’s ultimate plan, we might realize that after obtaining what we want, we develop a desire for something else. The wants of the world never end. There is always something new we must get our hands on. When we trust God with our lives, our fleshy desires diminish. We find ourselves being please with what we have and prepared to share our abundance with those who do not. Once we submit to God’s will, God will then give us what we most desired. Scripture says,
Matthew 6:33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well
I know a woman who was ministered to about what God had planned for her life. She was supposed to leave her job and open her own business along with taking care of some ministerial duties. She was so down and distraught about how her finances at home and probably within a month, she went back on the job market to start working again. She heard the call, she obeyed but couldn’t go through with it. She lost faith in God because of what was going on around her. If we are aware of God’s character, we know that God uses the most impossible situation to manifest Himself. If at any time, we used our own strength to bring ourselves out of a mess, God could not get all the credit. He will step back from our problem and let you work it out yourself. I mean, He is a gentleman.
“Let Your will be done” isn’t a simple prayer. It requires one to deny himself completely for the prayer to come to life. This prayer isn’t for the faint at heart.
If our strength comes from the joy of the Lord (Nehemiah 8:10), what do we think of that sparks that joy. Is it the things that He has done for us? Miracles, breakthroughs or victories? How about His love? There is a song by Phil Wickham called “Your Love Awakens Me” and I have it on my “Worship” playlist on my phone for many reasons. I can’t unlock the best of what God has for me unless I am fully aware of how much He loves me.
The world has made it difficult. Some of us were raised without fathers. The person responsible for being a leader, a provider, to be our security and our standard of love…nowhere to be found. How could we understand the magnitude of God’s love if we don’t know how it feels to be loved? Some of us placed our hearts in the hands of a spouse and they tore it into pieces leaving nothing but empty promises, betrayal and abandonment. How could we ever trust a Being that isn’t visible or a God that isn’t perceptible? They say to trust in the Lord but trusting the closest people in our lives has proven to guide us towards sorrow and failure.
God is way ahead of us and already knows our deepest troubles hindering us from receiving the fullness of His love. Like scripture says, all we need to do is touch the boarder of His garment for a breakthrough. Push through the crowds, reach out and His power will begin to flow. Sometimes, we must give love another chance. This time, from God. Read scriptures daily and watch how the words come alive for you in your time of need.
When His love awakens us, we begin to see who we are in Him. We are set apart, special, the apple of His eye. He cares for our sorrows, He cares for our pain. He puts peace into our hearts when things seem to be at its worst. I’ve witnessed His love to be more powerful than any other thing that claims to offer love in any other form. Because of His love, He has taught me to love my family like He loves me. Not just an ordinary love but a love that requires sacrifice. I sacrifice myself, my desires, my comforts and my will for them and I will do it over and over until I die. That is what His Love has done for me. It awakened my spirit to be a better person. To lift myself from despair or to break out of my shortcomings. He teaches me and molds me into His image every time I get a taste of the Love He has for me. I can’t measure His love; therefore, I can’t imagine how great it is. When He simply shows me a hint of His heart, I can’t contain myself. His love for me opened my eyes to the sorrow of this world. Suddenly, I want to dedicate my life to the ministry and give it all I have. I mean, He gave me His Only Son.
We can’t receive His love unless we tunnel our eyes towards Him. Forget what others has done to you and give it one more shot, that’s if you are at your last. You won’t regret it. I don’t speak in the voice of religion but in the heart of… – I understand because that was once me –
Leaps of faith are underrated. We need to make a bigger hype about them because those are the game changers.
It all started in 2011, a man ministered to me and told me that my career was coming close. It meant a lot to me at that time because I pondered about it over and over in my head. I had already enlisted into the Army, preparing for boot camp and anticipating spending 52 weeks training for my MOS (35W) – Electronic Warfare Signal Intelligence. Might I add: I was super excited to get my butt out there but… I wasn’t going.
Did I consult the Lord? No. If I had done so, I would not have wasted my time. God stopped me in my tracks.
After being sworn in, standing before the American flag giving my soul to the military, the Lord miraculously ended what I thought was going to be my future.
I got pregnant.
So there I was. In church. Career-less with a small child. I couldn’t go to school and I was in and out of minimum wage jobs. I felt useless. But the Lord told me through a minister that he had prepared for me a career. I wasn’t anticipating it because I didn’t believe it.
10/2011 I almost didn’t go to the interview. The job offer seemed sketchy. I was 3 minutes late for the interview and I wore a sweater dress. For some odd reason, I got the job. It was an entry level position at a medical billing company helping out with accounting. Within months I was promoted to a claims specialist.
It was 06/2015, almost 4 years passed and I was ready for change. I wanted to expand my knowledge in the billing field so I took that leap of faith and accepted a job as a billing manager at a Chiropractic office. I learned the revenue cycle first hand which was great but
I hated it.
Months passed and I found a job at Hoboken, NJ at another billing office. I learned a bit more about commercial insurance but,
I hated it.
Then came my dream job. I was hired at an actual hospital working as a medical biller. It was tough but I LOVED IT. Unfortunately, it was only temporary.
My last stop was at a billing office literally pushing paper. I finished my duties and resigned.
2016 has been a serious rollercoaster as far as my career was concerned. I learned soooo much but I had to go through soooo much to get where I am now.
Where am I?
Back at my 2011 job.
People kept questioning why my job status was always unstable. Listen, if you’re trying to get somewhere in life, you have to do some scary, ground shaking things. I took risks and I came out a pro. I’m at a point that I could run a billing business on my own. (Everything in its time).
The Lord gave a command and the command came through for me. I am a gosh darn flipping awesome medical biller. I get doctors paid like that 👏🏽. I love what I do.
Lord, thank you for the lessons. For giving me strength to endure uncertain times. Thanks for guiding me back to where I’m supposed to be. In Jesus name. AMEN!